User:QuiteShyy

I'm Katsumi also known as "Lillinvyn" on ROBLOX, or "Shiina" on Discord. I used to work on all the Wiki related materials here for the game known as "Tower Defenders".

I tried recruiting more Wiki-Staff before I lost my sanity here. Unfortunately, nobody was qualified for the position and were mainly just copy/pasting already created content from another Wiki - so here we are. I've reached out to a friend to see if he'll check things out every now and then. The main pages of this Wiki will most likely not be updated (Staff/Codes/Main Page/Update Logs/Navigation Bar) unless they do end up working here. However you may still update all the other pages! I'll check in every now and then to delete the useless pages.

I hope things are better for whomever cares enough for this game as much as I used to.

- About what's going on:

I've been going through tons of emotional trauma these last few months, and the toxic community I've been apart of has not helped a bit. Due to recent emotional damage to myself from this game and the discord community, I've decided just to leave. I wish I had never been apart of this community if I had known these were the type of people I had to be around, as well as if this is the type of treatment I would've been receiving. I forced myself to push past all the negativity/false accusations/rumors about me to help the game out as much as possible. I've broken down multiple times and it's almost normal to come home from work in tears because of the things people would say/do about me. I've created the Wiki, numerous maps, and even UI whilst having to deal with nearly everyone hating me on the side. It has taken a toll on me throughout the year I've been here. I worked really hard for free, and always refused any payment. I appreciate Joey for being really the only person to somewhat care about me and what I've done in the community.

I most likely won't be around anywhere anymore. There's no point in adding me to talk about anything even if it is to get my side of what's going on or to pass on the Wiki. As much as it hurts I don't care enough to publicly bring it up to the community because things already happened and it just doesn't matter anymore. Recently I took all the blame for a dramatic event on the Discord. This was just so people could move on with things as normal like nothing ever happened. I knew I would suffer mentally for it, even if I wasn't the one really at fault and still decided that'd be the best course of action for the community to thrive. I always appear to be the 'bad staff member' in every situation that happens on the discord because of false information or out of context content that staff spread about me and then the community builds off of that. I've recently lost almost everything that I care about, be it family members/interests/friends - and now everything else around me is falling apart alongside it. I've really only ever had negative things happen to me, so that's why I've always been silent to avoid it. I have never really mattered to anyone, which is one of the reasons why I removed everyone off my friends list. People I thought were my friends, and people I stick up for in this community have also betrayed me for their entertainment/benefits as well. I'm just sick and drained from all of this happening to me. It's as if nobody ever wanted me there in the first place. So I left to finally make them happy.

I've always put the community first and it just felt like I did something wrong every time I contributed to it.